Hate That I Love You- Rihanna

That’s how much I love you
That’s how much I need you
And I can’t stand ya
Must everything you do make me wanna smile
Can I not like you for awhile

No.. but you won’t let me
You upset me girl, then you kiss my lips
All of a sudden I forget that I was upset
Can’t remember what you did

Well I hate it
You know exactly what to do
So that I can’t stay mad at you
For too long, that’s wrong

Girl, I hate it
You know exactly how to touch
So that I don’t wanna fuss and fight no more
So I despise that I adore you

And I hate how much I love you boy
I can’t stand how much I need you
And I hate how much I love you boy
But I just can’t let you go
And I hate that I love you so

And you completely know the power that you have
The only one that makes me laugh
Sad and it’s not fair how you take advantage of the fact that I
Love you beyond the reason why
And it just ain’t right

And I hate how much I love you girl
I can’t stand how much I need you
And I hate how much I love you girl
But I just can’t let you go
And I hate that I love you so

One of these days maybe your magic won’t affect me
And your kiss won’t make me weak
But no one in this world knows me the way you know me
So you’ll probably always have a spell on me

That’s how much I love you
How much I need you
That’s how much I need you
That’s how much I love you
That’s how much I need you

And I hate that I love you so
And I hate how much I love you boy
I can’t stand how much I need you
And I hate how much I love you boy
But I just can’t let you go
And I hate that I love you so

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today was such a bad day for me! :( but i shan't go into details.
i am going to do something crazy with my hair again. tsk, impulsiveness.
full permed short hair. my auntie days are back!

i went to toni (my daddy thought it's peter and guy LOL) and guy for the haircut.
sheesh the hairstylist there said i have a sharp face, and i almost burst out laughing.
MY FACE? SHARP? Hello!?! Are you blind or what! My middle name is fat, and my last is round!
well i really couldn't contain myself so i blurted out, "WHAT? my face is ROUND!"
tsk, and she brushed me off by saying, "everyone says their face is round."
i wish. if my face was a nice shape, i tell you it's round for what! -.-
then she went on to say that my cheekbones are high, and i almost snorted.
but of course, being a lady-like me, i gave a sweet smile.
HAHAHAHA oh man i almost died la! if only my mom was there...

i kinda miss my long hair, but now i got a blob of hair.
i named it bob the blob. :) it makes me happy when it bounces on my neck.
anyway, gonna get the perm tmr! i'm half sure i will look like shit, but i agreed already so there's no backing out! haha. oh well, hair always grows back. and it's free. so.

i realise that every time something bad happens to me, my first instinct would be to throw everything away and run off to some island. which reminds me, i miss diving. :(

on a brighter note,

i finally got my dive card!

so i'm running away...

to DIVE once i save enough money!

your subtleties, they strangle me.
i can't explain myself at all.
and this is how it feels like to be loved?