Bad days exist so that good days do too. :)

Dear Estella,

Honestly I don't know who you are sometimes. What is this ugly monster that is dwelling inside you, growing with each day, clawing at your insides to get out? Why do you allow such a terrible feeling to hang around you as though it's your good old pal? This is not good company, and I have to warn you before things get out of hand my dear. Stop giving in to that monster because it's bad for you. That monster - it's a sweet talker. It twists words round and round just so you would fall into the trap, and believe in whatever it has to say. But no, don't believe it because all it wants is to see you to fall into that pitch black hole again. It's time you stopped giving in to the monster. Just let it go. Set it free. Be strong, take heart my dear.

What are these evil seeds of thoughts that you've been planting in me, trying to weaken me into making impulsive and selfish decisions? Just so you know, I will not waver, and you can keep planting those seeds for all you want, but I will refuse to water them.

I'll allow you a few hours of sadness, but that's it. After tonight, you're going to have to snap back to being cheery and carefree, even if it means singing the hippo song to yourself a dozen times tomorrow morning or downing a hearty breakfast that will make your tummy come out to play. You are not allowed to wallow to sorrow, hear me? You are not allowed to make use of me to replay events that you know will make you upset all over again, alright?

After you've read this note, I'm sure you'd have felt much better already. Hey, no obligation okay, but be happy will ya?

You know I love you. Now go sleep.


With love,
The Brain

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(As quickly as lightning, Anger comes and leaves in a huff; while Guilt rumbles along slowly like an old man, careful to dwell for as long as possible, filling in the void that Anger has left behind.)

just one silly photo of me chasing gennybee to show that i'm okay,
so don't worry for me please.
i just need a place to vent and air my thoughts, the way people air their armpits clothes.
:)