now you know the way i feel.

Seems like naivety makes up 30% of me, while water takes up the other 70%.

The human body cannot function properly without water, and yet here I am wasting it away, over stupid and naive thoughts.

Yesterday- it was o-kay at first, just sitting at home, playing pretend with myself, and watching the words I wanted to say play hide-and-seek. It was okay, and I was okay. Then came midnight, and I thought, 'This is it, Sadness forgot to visit me afterall. It's time I stopped waiting up for him and catch some sleep.'

So sleep I did.

Then morning came, but the sunshine never did. I saw Sadness sleeping by my side, and so I asked him, "Hey, what took you so long?" It was dark and gloomy, and worse, chilling even. But he didn't say a thing; just shrugged, before turning away to sleep again.

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Don't wanna make it awkward for everyone, but I don't wanna pretend either.

Well it doesn't take a scientist to decipher what is it that's bugging me because really, I'm sick and tired of being cryptic - or at least, trying to be. I just want to be able to say what I mean and mean what I say, is that so wrong? But please please, don't mention that name right now because it'll set me off; really it will. Won't you all just play along and pretend this is nothing until I'm ready to talk about it? I've got much to say but not now, and not here definitely.

PS: If I'm not able to blog any happier entries (I feel obligated to somehow), I might have to run away just for awhile. Sorry for taking the cowardly way out again, but I think a hiatus will do me good. :)

don't you know her heart by now?


真的痛了